The Dimensions of life change…
It is the quest of our self that drives us along the eternal and never ending journey we must all make –Maz Beckmann
With school starting back up I am feeling lost with the time that I never felt I had when my 13 & 10-year-old daughters were in school. Now that my oldest McKenzie who is 21 has settled back into a new apartment and looking forward to her Senior Year at the Kansas City Art Institute. The feelings of sadness have hit me with an overwhelming response. I already miss the noise in my house, sisters being sisters & the little girls asking “McKenzie what should they wear” All of which makes me smile because although they are very different in style, interest’s and mannerism’s. They are all ok with going back to school. It’s me for the first time in a long time I am having a hard time with all three of them finding their own independence. I know this is something that every parent wants for their children but I miss them needed me.
I now must become a life changing mom, friend, daughter, wife, business owner, yoga teachers & whatever else comes to mind on what I do on a daily basis. Wouldn’t it be nice to have a colorful, well-illustrated & happy map of life to look forward to? I know from experience from the death of my dad that life transitions come when we don’t deserve or expect it. I feel like my life is mess. Most of the time out of control but on the outside I pretend to wear my shiny coat of Yoga princess warrior. With each unknown I can initiate and respond to life-changing events with creativity and resourcefulness and create a life meaningful purpose. So instead of me trying to fight the currents of change, I work on flowing with my craziness, and continue to find my own unique way to make the journey.
This is not a new subject to any parent or person just doing the best we can with each day we are given. I am looking at the many possibilities of what 5th, 8th grade with bring to my little girls and life adventures for McKenzie in her Senior year at the KCAI. I promise to each of them and to myself to be present, be fearless in their explorations and in my own and to fully appreciate today.
So for my 46th Birthday I decided to get a tattoo on my foot to remind me that it is ok to color outside the lines, make mistakes and be the silly mom. “be fearless” Thank you Mckenzie for trusting me to go with you to watch you get your “be present” tatoo life goes by too fast.
Many blessings and so much love to all my family, friends and yogi’s in my colorful never dull life!
Ps…I am not an English major-overlook all the .,” goof and many misplaced things J